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happy impressions were, however, too soon effaced by what was to be experienced in the new scene of men and things upon which I was soon to enter. From the jail at Ostend we were removed to that of Dunkirk ; cooped up, as it were, amongst hundreds of fellow-sufferers ; vice in every shape ever presenting itself; without a Bible, or any person with whom to exchange a single word upon the subject of the best things; and, above all, with a heart prone to sin,--the effect of all this was to deaden the conscience, and lead the heart away from God. After being about seven months in this situation, (wbich even in point of bodily suffering is shocking to descrihe,) I was marched with others into the interior of the country. On ihe march I embraced the first opportunity to desert from the escorting guard, with a view to escape the further horrors of a French prison, and, if possible, to reach my native country. In this, however, I failed; and some time after was taken again, and marched back to rejoin the party which I had left. Sitting by the fire one evenicy, a French hussar present said he had an English book, and asked me if I could read. It was the remaios of a pocket edition of Dr. Watt's hymns, which he had been using to light his pipe. Not having seen a devotional book of any kind for a great length of time, I felt a strong desire to possess it, and with a part of the little money I had left bought it of him. Many of these hymns were particularly adapted to the condition and circumstances I was then in. As such I found them both sweet and profitable to read, and committed many of them to memory They were, I have reason to say, made the means of much consolation, and of leading my beart often out in prayer, and of restraining me from going the length in sin I should probably have done without them.

“ After bring nearly a year and a half in the hands of the French, an exchange of prisoners took place; by which means I returned home to my native country, to follow again the line of life from which I had been taken. But sin had not yet lost its dominion over me; nor had I vet seen sufficiently far into the desperate wickedness of my own heart. New circumstances brought along with them their new temptations; and, not being sufficiently on my guard, and living too much in the neglect of prayer, I often fell, and pierced myself through with many sorrows. And often the tempter would say why should you grieve, and give way to desponding fears,---when all your past experience has only proved, Thai sin was more than a match for you, if God has decreed to save you, nothing would prevent him ; to look therefore beyond this, were only to em bilo ter the present life without being of benefit to that which is to come. But hope, in her season, would as ofien return and bear me above all thi se suggestions, whilst in desponding moments the case of Peter's fall and resturation has been more than once a source of much encouragement. At other times I was led to believe, that the evil lay in a seafaring life, from its being so unfavourable to religion ; that. therein must lay the chief cause of all my wanderings from the ways of God; and that in any other situation where temptations to sin were less frequent, I should be the more able to live in a manner more acceptable to him. Under this impression, therefore, I acted upon the last resolution, in quittings.

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marine pursuits for some other. Whatever circumstances might be con nected with this rash step, it is known to him who knows all things, that the principal cause, was that of a wounded spirit. On more mature reflection, however, I was led to see my error; and to see that the true source of all the evil was to be found in my own heart, and go where I wouid, on the land or on the sea, this heart must go along with me. Hence I reiraced my steps, and soon returned to the sphere in which Providence had placed me.

“Some time after I had completed my years of servitude, and obtained by the help of friends the command of a ship, a new scene of temptations presented itself. I now saw myself placed in command of a large property: io authority over others at an age before I had well learnt to coin inand myself; with fine secular prospects before me ; and being withal naturally of an aspiring disposition, (one so contrary to that which breathed in the meek and lowly Saviour,) my heart was quickly carried away, as before wind and tide, in the vortex of worldly interests. The only question now seemed to be, how I should leave others behind, who moved in the same live as myself: how I should be what the world calls a great mail, and cut a figure in life. These, and such as these, were the objects which now engrossed my heart; and that to the almost entire exclusion of all concern about the one thing needful. Before, other sins had the bite of a viper that roused to prayer, and raised the cry again for merry; but now the love of the world and the pride of life seemed, as with the tourh of a torpedo, to paralyze the whole power of the soul. But even in this sunken condition, hopeless as it seemed to be, the Lord did not forsake me quite, inasmuch as he raised up in his providence a spiritual friend in the person of an elder brother. This young man, of a truly exemplary character, it was my privilege to receive on board as supercargo. He was a member of a Christian church ; and in him I found an example that influenced, a mind to admonish, and a heart to feel for my best interests, though I was far from taking that heed to these which I ought to have done. In too many instances indeed, they were treated with neglect. It was also the same pious concern for me, that led him to put such book into my hand as were best suited to my case and cir. cuinstances : books which I probably never should have thought of for myself. Amongst others which was found of great service, was the Rev. John Newton's Life and Letters. The former of these I sat up all night to read, the first time I took it up. Is there a brother Sailor going to sea without John Newton's Life and Letters ? let him sell all he has, even to the shirt upon his back, were that necessary to obtain them.

“But my advantage in a companion so truly valuable was not to last long, for on a second voyage, being overtaken by a storm at sea, in a boat, he found a watery grave. As I had no common affection for him, so I grieved the more over the loss. A loss it was to me, and a great one io one sense, but in another, and a far bigber, it was my eternal gain. The thought of one so near to me, in all respects, being snatched away in the bloom of life, from amidst the fairest prospects as to this world, left an impression both deep and lasting upon my mind. The dead lived in such a manner io my recollection, as to give a new life to his past admonitions and example. The books he had once recommended were read with greater interest than before. All this working together for good, led me to reflect more seriously

than ever I had done upon the uncertainty of life, of its vanity, of the instability of all earthly things, and of the downright madness of living unprepared for that state which never changes. The things which had appeared so good, and so great, and of such gain, I seemed beginning to count loss. The flesh seemed crucifying; the great world rolling away, and the soul gradually rising into a newness of life, wbilst the whole character was acquiring more strength and more consist. ency. It was my mercy, some time after, to lodge under the roof of a pious widow of a sea captain, as I returned from my voyages. This aged sister was a great service in building me up in divine things, and in bringing me into contact with some of the excellent of the earth, with whom I found it good to associate. Previous to this, my intercourse while on shore had been for the most part with characters of a very different description ; and there is reason to believe that it was the circumstance last mentioned, which excited a desire for a more intimate acquaintance with the people of God. This desire was afterwards happily gratified. Happily for me, I became personally acquainted with many, in whose hearts was shed abroad the blood of Christ; and with characters, not a few, who were glowing with a laudable zeal to promote the same love in the hearts of others, both at home and abroad. During my intercourse with these, I began to feel an increasing desire to live more than I had hitherto done, to the glory of God, in the good of my fellow-men.

“ With such a feeling on my mind, and with such opportunities as I had every day, and had had from a boy, of being acquainted with the abandoned condition of seafaring men in general, it will not be a matter of surprise, that sooner or later, I should have been brought to compassionate that class in particular, with an eye of more than common compassion, and one accompanied with the corresponding desire of becoming, in one way or another, instrumental in their salvation. The period when the impulse referred to was felt, was a little prior to the event of the last peace. At that time surrounded with secular concerns, I saw no way in which such a desire could be realized : this however growing, instead of abating, gave birth to many fervent petitions to Him from whom all holy desires proceed, that he would enable me to commit my way unto Him, and that along with the growing desire he would grant patience to wait his will, his own time, and bis own way; or if the desire felt was not one of his own inspiring, that it might depart and die.

“ In answer to prayer, His hand appeared at length, strikingly manifest in opening me an easy and effectual way through ; and in giving me strength to act accordingly.

“ After a preparatory course of studies for the work, I left this country for the continent, to obtain an acquaintance with the languages of some of its most maritime parts, with a view to be useful in the best things to foreign seamen as well as our own. I had not been in Holland yet ten months, when I received information of an ark being established upon the Thames, and then, some months afterwards, of the formation of a BRITISH AND FOREIGN SEAMEN'S FRIEND SOCIETY AND BETHEL UNION. How much tidings, so welcome and unexpected, surprised and delighted my heart, it is not easy to express :

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and I trust the gratitude excited by the consideration that God had inspired, and was yet inspiring, in the breasts of others, a feeling so congenial to my own, will never lose its power upon my heart. On my returning to my native country, little did I think to see so much good already done for seamen, and so much more yet in prospect."

Here Mr. Angas concluded by saying, that he believed he had now replied to the question put to him to the best of his knowledge and recollection. In answer to a second question, Mr. A. gave an outline of the leading doctrines he professed to believe and desired to proclaim. These were briefly the same as distinguish the body of the Protestant evangelical Christians.


(Continued from p 192.) August 13,- The Bethel meeting, this evening, was on board the ship Comet, Captain Moore, east side Coffee-House slip. We were under some apprehension that but few of the Comınittee would be present; for some are timid, and unwill. ing to go on board of vessels in the evening, under the apprehension of exposing themselves to the prevailing fever, and some had other engagements. But at 3 o'clock we assembled on board, and were delighted in sering so many mariners and citizens present, many of whom were able and willing to aid us in our devo, tional exercises. Divie Bethune, Esq., the President, led the meeting. He read, a hymn, after which he made a short address, congratulating all present on the pleasing sight of so many citizens and mariners assembled together to unite in such a blessed cause. We then were engaged in praising God, (repeating the hyinn that had been read,) for his goodness to the children of men. After which, prayers were offered up to Almighty God, intermixed with praise and exhortations. While thus engaged, a seaman stepped forward, and said he wished to say a few words to his brother seamen. "My life has always been spent in this employment, and I have always been an awful wicked sinner. I have often called on God to damn my soul. 0! if he had answered my prayers, I should now be in hell. This thoughtless and wicked life never gave me any uneasiness, until on a voyage at sea the ship was struck down and capsized, and three of my sbip. mates swept off deck into eternity. I saw and felt my awful situation. The first sincere prayer I ever made was then- Lord have mercy on me.' After I was delivered from this perilous situation, I did not forget what the Lord had done for me I tried to pray again, and for fear I should be seen, I went in the night and kneeled down at the foot of the bowsprit, and prayed to God that he would have mercy on my soul. As I did not receive any comfort from my prayers, I said to myself-how can I expect it? I have oftev prayed he would damn my soul, and send me to hell, and he did not do it: but for all this I could not give up praying. I begged God that he would give me an understanding heart, and take away the blindness from my mind and eyes; he then heard and answered my prayers, and gave me my heart's desire; and I trust he has made me a new creature in Christ Jesus.” He then addressed all the seamen present very feelingly, and said: “If you have any conviction of sin, do not do as I have done; I was afraid my shipmates would laugh at me, and treat me with contempt; I dared not let any of them see me pray, or let any one know bow I felt. I lost many months labouring under these foolish impressions. But not so now; I am not ashamed of Christ, and hope I never shall be.” He said many other things, which were very interesting. After he had done, another seaman came forward, and related many things which took place when he was a child. He became a captain when very young, and was brought up under a pious grandmother-he commenced a sea. faring life when young, with all these pious feelings in his heart. His grandmother gave him a Bible, and charged him to read it continually. But he did not see any of his shipmates read the Bible, and he thought he must do the same, and soon became a profane man, and none was more wicked than he; and notwithstanding he always felt guilty and unhappy. But for about one year past, he believes he has been made a new creature in Christ Jesus, and could now recommend that Saviour to every one, and begged all present would receive Him as the

Captain of their salvation. We then concluded our devotions by singing a few verses an i uhit oc soiugr. More atteation, silence, and suleiadi x, cvala but be expected in any Church in this city. Repors of the Bethel Caron, les York Mau Bible Swciety, the Christian deraid und Sranan s Magufuity and Tracts, Þeir distr bated oth captaia, crew, and all the starnea present.

Ju li.-B: the request of captain Sasst ut, and the owners of the ship Fanpv. blad to the Prix Ucean, the Bethel Flag was botsted, and after sunset the Lantera was suspended at the aia topgallant yardarm. At 8 o'clock, the Be. thel Cunnittee assembled on board, bignir favoured with a pleasant evening. The deck was svoa tiled with mariners and citizens, amongst whom were many ship masters. The Jevonious were com neaced by singing a hymn ; after which one of 1 ! Committee eoga. in prayer to Alinighty God, for the owners, captain, officers and crew of veship, and then for all the ship masters, eficers, and sean 3 salliag out of New-York, and throughout the word The exercises of this evening varied froin our usual practice. Inose who led in prayer, before they ad. dresses the throne of Grace, drew the attention of all preseat to the sailor's condition by able and feeliog exhortations. It seended to solemize every one, and prepare them to join in the impo tant durs of prayer. After three prayers and exhort ations were made, a part of the 733 Psalm was read. An invitation was then given to any one present, lan tsunan or seaman, to give an address, and ofier up prayer. A stranger arose and said : “ This is the first Bethel meeting lever saw: it makes my heart rajoice to see and bear what you are doing for seamen ” He then address. ed ail the seamed preseat: “I ain a landsman, and know but little about a seafaring life, but I know you are useful, and long neglected men, as it respects your eternal inte:est: I do feel for you, for I know you are exposed to ionumerable dangers and temptations, and you hare as precious and immortal so is to save as landsmen, and I am overjoyed to see so many present who are engaged for your salvation." His address was calculated to touch the hearts of all present; he then engaged in prayer. There were five addresses and five prayers made, and a part of four hymas were sung. After which the Chrisiian Herald and Seaman's Magazine, and many pamphlets, were lett on board, and tracts given to all the seamnen present. Such silence and attention on board of vessels, gives every reason to believe that the Lord owns and smiles on these feeble endeavours; there is every thing to encourare us to double our exertions. The Bethel Loion are but seldom acquainted with the effects of their efforts in promoting the cause of God among mariners, and when they are informed of some wonderful interposition of divine Provideace in opeoin, the eyes and breaking the hearts of any sinners at their meetips, they do not wish to sound it on the house top, nor at the corner of every st ef; but it may be proper to state what took place in the meeting on board the Fanny. On Monday, the 19th, iwo seamen called on Capt. P , for Bibles. After asking them many questions, he told them it was out of his power to give all the sea'den Bibles, and that every one who wished to have a Bible was able to nav seventy-five cents for one, if they had a mind to do it: but the practice is, to supply all vessels that cross the Atlantic with Bibles, that seamen may have them to read when absent from New York. One of them said: “I wish I had a Bible now ; I never wanted oue before.” “Why do you want one now?" said Capt. P. "I want to read it." "Why do you want to read it now?" He was so much af. fected he could not speak. “When did you first have a desire to read the Bible?" “ Now." "Do you feel that you are a sinner?" "I do." “ How long have you felt so?" “ Since last Saturday evening, at the meeting on board the Fan. ny. What was then said, and the prayers that were made for seamen, gave me great distress : and reading the Tract you gave me, made me feel more distressed. I have not been able to go out of the house before." He was asked what Tract he had; he handed it: it was, " THE BIBLE IS THE BEST OF BOOKS.” “I have read that Tract," said the sailor, " ten or eleven times, and I want to read that book, the Bible.” His request could not be denied. Captain P. gave him a Bible, and the other a Testainent. He then stated what a wicked man he had been. "I am an old sinner-I am 36 years old, and I never had a moment's concern for my soul before and there were three others, who were on board the Fanny, that feel as I do; we have conversed together about that meeting ; my distress is so great I cannot tell you how I feel : if I get any comfort in reading this Bible I will come and see you again. You said there will be a meeting at Burling slip to-morrow evening; I will be there." More tracts and pamphlets were then riven then, wbich seemed to alter the countenance of the distressed seamar,

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