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blage of Christian brethren, each with a tear in his eye and a prayer on his lips, to wish me God speed, was sweetly touching to my heart. I do not forget you, my beloved friends. How happy is the thought that on so many praying lips my name will often find a place when the Holy One of Israel is sought in fervent devotion!

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Wednesday, Sept. 18.-Everything is so agreeable, that at present our voyage is like a pleasure trip. On deck, where we remain for the most part of the day, enjoying the warm sunshine and the fresh balmy breeze, with a clear sky and the deep blue waters, with the ship steadily stealing away, and all clean and orderly around us, cheerful countenances and pleasing associates, there seems scarce any thing awanting to contribute to our enjoyment. I have felt real happiness this day. Nothing has occurred that could make it otherwise. There has been communion betwixt my soul and God the whole day long. I have had the Scriptures in my hand, reading and meditating the greater part of the day; and the Word has been applied by the Spirit of Truth with refreshing power to my soul. I have been drinking of the river whose waters make glad the city of the living God. Now thrown entirely on the Lord, in body, soul, and spirit given up to God, seeking to draw nigher and closer unto Him whom I love and in whom I am chosen, aspiring after more of the precious influences of the Spirit of grace and love,

desiring to be perfected in the knowledge and love of Christ, I have this day felt that God is willing to give me far more abundantly than all I can ask or think. His banner has been spread over me, and the presence of Christ fills my heart with joys that are unutterable.

"This evening I commenced a class meeting, Erwin and the boatmen joining me. The Lord was graciously present to bless. I was much pleased with the simplicity and earnestness of their experience. Poor Erwin, who has not yet found Christ as his Saviour, was much affected, and, I believe, is not very far from the kingdom of God. May the Lord help him speedily to step in into the glorious liberty of the sons of God!

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Thursday, Sept. 19.-I am deriving much good from witnessing the Christian character exemplified so strikingly in the person of our beloved Captain [Gardiner]. Truly he is a man of God. There is a devotedness to God manifested by him delightful to witness; a fervent piety with great simplicity of deportment, a high tone of exalted greatness of soul, with the absence of all pride or self-elevation. His mind is evidently deeply imbued with the Word of Life. I sink utterly into nothingness by comparison with him. I esteem it a great privilege to have such a living example set before me. Hitherto I have had to struggle on unaided by man in my efforts to gain the mastery over an evil heart of unbelief. Now I feel I shall

derive great help and encouragement from seeing one far advanced in the way of holiness exemplifying the graces of the Christian character. He has made me a present of two works written by him -Travels in Africa, and A Voice from South America.

"Saturday, Sept. 21.-Had our last view of Madeira at noon, distant from us about fifty miles. A lovely day, the thermometer in the cabin ranging above summer heat,—in the sun very hot. Today I had occasion to go to the forecastle to attend on two of the sailors who were confined by sickness. This gave me an opportunity of talking to the men, and I had a long conversation with them, and endeavoured to impress their minds, by God's help, with thoughts concerning their own salvation. They listened respectfully. Since coming on board, I have been much affected by feeling myself palpably surrounded with wickedness on all hands. Happily the position is quite novel; for, although I have been ever moving among the worldly and the profane, yet I have been able to retire from amongst them into the seclusion of my own or some other quiet home. But now the harsh sound of vice reaches my ear all the day long, and I feel I am indeed a stranger and a pilgrim here. I bless the Lord that I look not for an abiding place, a continuing city amongst men, but that I am travelling with a consciousness of its being the wilderness, and looking forward to the rest which God

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hath prepared for his people. "Twere a sin against God to expect or seek a rest here in this world. Here we must labour and lay up our treasure with God. Here we must toil and patiently endure the burden and heat of the day. Here we must wage our warfare, and fight the good fight of faith. Behold, God will come with a recompence.' I will look forward and hasten unto the day of his appearing. I bless and praise God that I feel the Lord most graciously helping me, strengthening me, enlarging my faith, inspiring me with hope and confidence, and giving me sensibly to feel the tokens of his love. The sunshine of God is in my heart, it feels the love of Christ.

"I do desire to glorify God. I long to love God with my whole soul. I seek and earnestly desire to have my every thought directed to the Lord. I truly wish for nothing the whole earth contains. I ask for nothing but grace to love God with all my heart, and mind, and soul, and strength, and, accepted of him, to be laid out and be spent in his service, to his honor and glory. With the world I have done, with all its interests and pursuits, as far as feeling more attachment to them than as things with which, whilst it pleases God, I am for a moment connected. But my treasure and my heart are both in heaven. may truly love thee! thee; O give me thy love! answer this my prayer!

Grant, O Lord, that I Cold is my heart toward Lord Jesus, hear and

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"Ah, my dear, my beloved friends, how many have been your anxious thoughts ere this! may the Almighty God, who blesses me with his peace, and gives me to taste the sweet consolations of Christ, bless you also, and keep your hearts from all doubts and tormenting fears! I am safe from all harm and secure from all evil in his hands. I wish I just could tell each one of you so. God bless you all. The moment for our meeting together in prayer has just arrived.

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Monday, September 23.-Yesterday-the Sabbath, we had a very delightful day. In the morning Captain Gardiner conducted the service, and read a sermon; in the evening Mr Maidment. These services were held in the cabin, and there was a large muster of the ship's company present, and a precious opportunity was afforded for sowing the seed of life. But I fear the opportunity was somewhat lost, for the reason that the discourses were not suitable and adapted to the minds of these poor ignorant men. I felt this at the time, and determined to prepare a sermon for the next Sabbath evening, in dependence on Divine help.

"This evening I went forward to the forecastle in company with Mr Maidment. We found most of the sailors present, nothing being doing on deck, as there was a perfect calm. They had just concluded a very jovial song with a boisterous chorus; and a party of them were engaged with cards. I treated them as gently as possible, and

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