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his providence, and who, I felt persuaded, would send light for our guidance in the very midst of our present thick darkness.
A short acquaintance with the natives confirmed the unfavorable report which such writers as FitzRoy, King, and Darwin, had given ; and in the forefront of all their actions it was visible that when they were the weaker party, they were mild and submissive; but the instant they had the prospect of taking us at a disadvantage, or unawares, they became presuming and full of mischief. Consequently, from the time we fixed our abode in Banner Cove to the present, I never saw any one way likely to lead us to success.
“ The destruction of the Pioneer in Earnest Cove, is another of the acts of God's providence toward us. How many had been the dangers, or at least apprehensions, we had experienced of our being separated one from another! Now in the Speedwell was nearly all our store of provisions, and a separation at sea must have been fatal to both of us. The Pioneer was also more difficult of management than the Speedwell, not answering readily to her helm, nor sailing so well. Both boats were ill manned ; though under the permanent arrangement of our party, the Pioneer was worst off, as there was only one sailor, besides her commander, on board, though with Mr Maidment and myself there were four persons. Besides, the weight of the iron decks made them both top
heavy. When, therefore, the Pioneer met her untimely end, I was forcibly struck that it would prove to our advantage, in point of safety and satisfaction ; though little absolute comfort could be expected from the stowage of seven persons, and all our effects, where there had hardly been room for three. But this was altogether a secondary consideration, compared to the danger of our separation at sea, and to the advantage of our being able to take so much better care of one boat, with undivided numbers. In this sentiment Captain Gardiner fully concurs. And yet, should not trust in God have led us to venture among the Indians at all hazards ? My conscience tells me in what we have done we have acted with prudential consideration of actual circumstances. The facts were before us; we have been directed by them, and to have done otherwise would have been presumption and folly. By the grace of God that has been given me, I can say that in the moment of peril and when confronted by danger I felt no fear, but had a firm assurance that all would be well, with such a peace and serenity of mind as only God could give. Yet have I felt and do feel, that God requires us to act according to a just judgment and sober consideration of the actual circumstances of a
When a danger is not vaguely apprehended, but is actually known to exist, we are not to run into it, but to avoid it. Faith never runs contrary to an enlightened judgment and just appreciation of things as they really are; but it is the first to yield and acknowledge that here there is no way open, whilst also the first to inspire the confident hope that God will himself open a way, in a manner different from any we know of, and in his own good and set time. So do I believe, and humbly do I acknowledge and thank God for all his manifold mercies and precious dealings with us.
“ Saturday, Feb. 23. — For the last two days the love of God has been shed abroad in my heart, and he himself has been nigh, in all my thoughts, and, what was more, in all my affections. Praise, and prayer, and meditation on his Holy Word, were more than ever one constant act, and in all things I had liberty. The Lord's blessing, too, was upon us in our meetings together with the men at night, and his Spirit was graciously poured out, producing great compunction of spirit and contrition of heart, with new and eager desires for the blessings of the gospel of grace in its fulness. On Thursday evening I gave the men a full view of the Lord's gracious dealings with myself, shewed them how I had laboured in ignorance, and the many ways in which I had grieved the Holy Spirit. I also plainly declared the nature of that perfection which we are commanded to seek after, and I told them how God had visited my soul with his love and the baptism of his Spirit. Earnest attention was given me, and much affectionate rejoicing was manifested by these simple-hearted friends, especially my dear brother Badcock. A child of God indeed is he,-an Israelite indeed, in whom there is no guile. Never did I see any one who was more truly a meek and humble follower of the Lamb. He has long been walking with God in righteousness and holiness, and breathing a filial childlike affection to God in Christ. Often have I praised the Lord for providing this example of his truth — this simple proof of the effectual working of his grace, where the Divine image is reflected from a groundwork of gross material, and where the great Creator alone could have wrought so mighty a change.”