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“I am writing this as I lie in bed; we have but light wind, almost a calm, which enables me to do so. Unhappily I am not getting better, and last night I was much distressed with the feeling of my excessive debility, and the pains in my limbs. Situated as we are, it is impossible to obtain the means necessary to my recovery, such as animal food and wine. How needful it is that a vessel should speedily arrive! But God will order all things; of this I am fully sure, and with joy and assurance I can yield myself into the Lord's hand, without a care possessing my breast as to when or how he will provide.

" Reliance Cove, Friday, March 21.-We arrived here safely by the mercy of God yesterday morning, at about ten o'clock. The wind at the time of our setting out was blowing from the eastward, and every thing very propitious, the morning being beautifully fine. Before we got out of the harbour a calm ensued, which detained us the best part of the morning; afterwards it freshened up from the north and north-west, still blowing from a quarter that happily favored us, and whereby our passage was rendered comparatively a short one,-short, indeed, compared with what might have been expected, when the winds for weeks and even months together are from the south and southwest, and this with fearful gales and overwhelming tempests.

During the night of Wednesday, while we were

pursuing our way over the watery deep, the wind repeatedly threatened to blow hard, sudden gusts coming on and betokening what hard things should follow. The swell was great, and the angry sea raged around our little boat and dashed its billows over it, so that the water penetrated both fore and aft, and wetted our beds, especially those of the men in the fore part. Heavily laden as our boat likewise was, crowded indeed in every part, she was quite top-heavy, and out of trim, as it is called ; that is, the weight above did not bear the just proportion to her capacity beneath. There was really ground for fear, and the men were more than once alarmed lest she should capsize. I lay conscious and satisfied that I and all of us were in the hand of the Lord, and assured that, holding the winds in the hollow of his fist, he could restrain his rough wind, and say unto the sea and its boiling waves, • Peace, be still.' I did not, however, rest on this conviction, but frequently during the night lifted up my soul to God in prayer, and I did observe a coincidence between the asking of God and the subsidence of the wind, yea, more than once that night. Great was the peace I knew, and wonderful was the loving-kindness of the Lord, supporting, yea, blessing me, with joy in his Holy Spirit, in the midst of much bodily weakness.

“ Reliance Cove, where we now are, derives its claim to that title from some outlying rocks breaking the great swell of the ocean, except when the

wind blows from the south south-west, to east southeast.

To-day, although I have not ventured at all out of bed, even to sit up, yet, through the goodness of God, I feel better than yesterday, during the whole of which I was very ill

. My disease is gaining ground, though I hope but slowly. The Captain and Mr Maidment are at present gone ashore, to explore the coast in the direction of Banner Cove or westward, to find, if possible, a better and safer anchorage. They have been gone since the morning, and a terrible walk they will have; for the Captain is iron-hearted as to dificulties, and almost incapable of fatigue,—at least he will not yield to anything less than impossibilities. Poor Mr Maidment is by no means in a state for such a trial of strength, being in fact very weak and unwell. May God preserve them and bless them both! In their absence I have got poor John Badcock, my fellow-sufferer, to come and take up his abode with me for the day, and we have both been greatly refreshed, whilst we have communed together in the Lord. How sweet is Christian fellowship and sympathy, when springing from Christian love!

“Since writing the above, I have had the men together and joined with them in a hymn and prayer. O, how greatly did I feel the melody of song in my heart! It was like a little heaven below. O that such feasts of sacred love and com

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munion with God were mine day by day! but they are as stolen waters.—It is getting late in the evening, and the Captain and Mr Maidment are not returned. Thrice have I lifted up my soul to God, beseeching that no evil may come upon them.

“ —Thank God, they are returned in safety, coming back a little after nine o'clock, having gone, by the Captain's admission, more than sixteen miles there and back, and through a rough and mountainous country. I hear the Captain give expression to weariness and fatigue, and, to my great surprise, Mr Maidment seems really less affected than the Captain ; thus assuredly the Lord strengthened him, for when he set out he was a poor, tottering, and disabled person.

Saturday, March 22.-I was exceedingly ill last night,—the sense of exhaustion being as though the life-blood were leaving my heart. This arose partly from my being too free yesterday in talking, singing, and praying ; but so great was my happiness that I availed myself of the joyous moments as they passed. But another reason is the want of sufficient support. I never slept a moment, the whole night, and towards the morning cold shivers came on.

“ This morning we left Reliance Harbour for some new abode. Whither we were bound circumstances would decide. The name of Reliance Cove was properly given, for our reliance was not in

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the protection it was capable of affording, but upon God who made it a place of shelter during a short halt by the way. Both nights we remained there the wind rose and threatened to blow hard, which had it done, we certainly should have had our boat dashed in pieces against the steep shingle beach. A few hours only after we left, a strong breeze from the southward sprang up, which would have blown right into the cove, and the swell of the ocean here is quite terrible. It is remarkable also, that the day of our leaving Earnest Cove, in Spaniard Harbour, the wind blew strong in from the eastward, and consequently, right into the cove,--the only time of its blowing strong from that quarter since our arrival there.

It might have damaged our remaining boat, and most certainly, as it was full moon, and consequently spring tide, we should have been dislodged both from the cavern and our stranded boat. Thus how clearly has God manifested his providential care over us. O how good is the Lord, and how greatly to be praised! Blessed be his name for ever!

Our passage from Reliance Cove to-day has been very trying. The weather has been boisterous, strong squalls, williwaws,' with hail and snow; the sea consequently has been very rough, and our cockle-shell of a boat, with its disproportioned deck-load, has not been free from danger of a sudden capsize. However, here we are, nearly at the entrance of Banner Cove once more, the

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