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only place where we poor strolling outcasts can find a secure anchorage ground. It is now nearly nine o'clock, and a dark and cheerless night. Thank God, we have escaped all the dangers of the day, and doubtless, God willing, shall escape the perils of the night. I have been very weak and poorly all the day, and whilst cooped up in bed, swinging under the iron canopy of our cribbed and scanty cabin, and hearing the waters dash over, yes, and sometimes tasting a little of them, even inside; whilst thus situated, rolling and rocking about, trying to escape from the gathering tempest, and hastening our way to a refuge, yet knowing not whither we should go, nor where our resting-place would be, my position was not calculated to fascinate the eye. Very weak have I felt myself, and Satan has urged his fierce assaults upon me. I had not strength to read, nor indeed to pray. Joy I could not summon to my heart, and I felt greatly wanting in love and in thankfulness and praise. But what could I do? I strove to pray; yea, I told the Lord I loved him with all my heart, and I blessed his holy name: yet words came not to my thoughts, and thoughts came not to my desires. I called, and all was silent: no voice responded. I did not discern the meaning of this at the time. I did not see that God had left me to a naked faith, and that it was to pass through a fiery ordeal in contending with all my trials and temptations. I saw danger on every side, but I feared it not,

Temptation pointed to death from the floods even as I was, cabined up in this small smoking place; then to death as likely to be the issue of my present disease, sea-scurvy, and no adequate means, no remedy at hand; and then to death as inflicted by the jagged war-spear of the Fuegian, or his deadly sling. But faith was more than conqueror, through Him that loved me and gave himself for me. It could and did answer, that if God willed either to take place, I desired nothing but his will, and in that case any death would be a welcome summons to a glorious immortality.

"After much conflict of this kind, I took up my Bible to try to read it; but I felt as though it would be impossible to summon up application sufficient for this delightful task, and I turned listlessly over the page, till my attention was powerfully arrested by these words of St Peter, 'But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.' I at once saw the Lord, and heard the voice of my God, and great was the consolation imparted to me thus by Christ Jesus. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name.' Now can I, and now do I, with all sweetness and assurance of hope, with peace and joy, leave myself in the hand of the Lord that he may do with me whatsoever seemeth him good, content in knowing that whatever be the way he takes with

me, I shall see his great, yea his wonderful salvation, and give glory to his excellent name for ever.

"Monday, March 24.-At Banner Cove again; and with the mercy and goodness of God very manifest both in bringing us here at this time, and in the providential arrangement of circumstances favorable to our safely and peaceably remaining here. May I never forget thy benefits, O my God, but give thee endless praise!

"It was nearly three o'clock on Sunday morning, that we cast anchor once more off our old and much to be remembered Station Hill, near to which we had built our wigwam, and dug a garden, and where our supplies of water were got from; and glad were all hands to find a place of rest after their fatiguing and harassing day's work. On glancing their eyes in the direction of our old quarters, the men discovered a light from a fire, kindled, they thought, in our wigwam. We therefore concluded that it had been taken possession of, and was now inhabited by the natives. In the morning, however, it was discovered that a new wigwam had been built during our absence, near our own, and ocular demonstration was soon afforded, as also by the well known vociferations addressed to the ears, that a large party of natives was established here. We now of course expected to behold the face of Jemmy, and his redoubtable associates, our late mortal foes, and that we should have a repetition of the trials which we had for

merly encountered here. We were therefore agreeably surprised, when they came off to us, to find that they were all entire strangers. The party numbered fourteen or fifteen, five men and five women, the rest children. They appeared rather a more squalid lot than our former companions, and not possessed of the same energy of character. Should their number not be increased by the addition of others, or of our old acquaintances, we shall be able to stay here in comfort and in peace. All things are in God's hand, and he will temper the wind to his shorn lambs. I doubt it not. His mercy is over all his works, and he loves us with a Father's tender love and gentle compassion. He will do all things well for us; of this I am deeply assured.

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Yesterday (Sunday) the day was very stormy, the equinoctial gales blowing most furiously, and from the southward, so that had we been at Reliance Harbour we must have perished, or had we been at sea our danger would have been great, Snow fell with rain, and the temperature was very low. Being in bed, I did not feel it, as happily our quarters are warm enough when closed up. I now am wholly confined to my bed, not daring to venture up, fearing that the exertion of rising would prostrate me too much. The Lord does make all my bed in my sickness; the angel of his presence overshadowing my soul, and hanging about me with such irradiations of glorious light,

-the light of God's love,-that I am happy, very happy, and not a moment sits wearily upon me. Sweet is the presence of Jesus, and oh! I am happy in his love.

"After the trials I encountered on Saturday, and our knocking about was over, the sleep that followed was, I think, the most refreshing that I ever enjoyed; not so much because it was a balmy restorative to my poor debilitated body, but because if ever the whisperings of Almighty love spoke tranquillity to the soul of man, and breathed a continued flow of divine consolation upon his heart, I felt them that night. I was, so to speak, talking with the Lord, and his grace supplied me with such rich treasure of wisdom in the discourse, and his unction so made the purport of my thoughts to diffuse a precious odor and a rich influence around me, that I could very well have thought I was in Paradise. I might have thought so, but that the subject-matter of my communings with the Lord, was the services, the joyful, heartfelt services, I should render unto him in this my lifetime, and period of sojourn here on earth. My heart seemed to tell the Lord how willingly, how gladly, my poor all should be given unto him, to spend and be spent for him alone; and how I should triumph with heavenly delight, whilst glorying that, by the power of his grace, I was able to win souls to Christ. And whilst such were my thoughts, the Lord seemed to accept me in all my

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