ness of thy life?-Pause to inquire. Well, what have been thy discoveries? Has the power of indwelling sin been lessened, the corruption of the heart more controlled, and hast thou been more decided in resisting the first rising of depravity? hast thou, in a word, become more conformed to the Divine will and transformed into the Divine image? Have thy views of the missionary work become more heavenly, and thy conceptions of the missionary character more exalted? Has thy dedication been more unreserved, and thy willingness to bear and suffer for Christ less constrained than before? Hast thou, in fact, learned to live less to thyself and more to God during the past week? If not, may God enable thee on the morrow, by the influence of his Holy Spirit, to seek at his hands all the grace and strength which thy wants need; and if thou canst give thy affirmation to all or any of the above questions, may thy glorified Lord and Saviour strengthen, stablish, and settle thee for his own name's sake. Amen.

Saturday, October 6th, 1832.

My experience this week has changed from the lively affection of a son to the distant and respectful behaviour of a slave. I have been favoured with some new discoveries of my true character. Pride, envy, and maliciousness of disposition are secreted in the inner chambers of my heart. I have since my discovery of their existence, frequently detected them emerging from their concealment and, through grace, have been able to resist their advance. When shall I be pure even as my Saviour is pure? holy as he is holy, and exemplify his devotedness ? I feel it so difficult to keep alive the holy flame of divine love. Worldly-mindedness, sensual thoughts and desires strive for the mastery, and shall they succeed? No; for I have loved thee with an everlasting love, and with loving-kindness have I drawn thee." Blessed Saviour! and hast thou thus dealt with me? and shall I now doubt the certainty of obtaining a victory? No; I will, thy grace helping

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me, renew my vows, put on afresh the armour thou hast provided for my defence, and in thy strength again contend with the world, the flesh, and the devil. Enable me, O my Saviour, to hold more intimate communion with thee. May prayer be the element in which I delight to live! Grant me more clear and simple views of thy great salvation. Show me more of my own condition as a sinner, my wants, my weaknesses, my constant need of divine aid; enable me to feel more sensible of the reality of divine things, rightly to estimate their importance, and regard it as the great object of my life to attain to more complete assimilation to thy divine will. For why should I, who am waiting to declare to the heathen the freeness and extent of thy love, be yet a child in the knowledge of thy will? "O send out thy light and thy truth, let them lead me" even unto the full measure of the stature of a man in Christ Jesus. Amen.

Sunday, October 14th, 1832.

I have, during the past week, had a vast increase to my obligations to my heavenly Father. Last Sunday I was prevented, through severe indisposition, from attending the service of God in his temple. How merciful are the afflictive visitations of God! How necessary to remind us what we are, what we should be! How they discover to us that which we should not otherwise have imagined to have existed in our breasts, bring to our remembrance all the vows that have been forgotten, vows which we made in times of difficulty, but which in prosperity we neglected to pay! Grant, O blessed Father, that this light affliction may be sanc-. tified to my soul. I am not worthy of thy notice or regard, yet look upon me with compassion, for my dear Redeemer's sake. Prepare me, by thy gracious discipline, for the missionary work. Let me discover what is my actuating principle, and if there is any wrong in me, do thou in mercy purge it out.

Let me know more of myself and more of my Saviour's love, and more of the Spirit's work in sanctifying and renewing my mind. Amen.

November 11th, 1832.

During the past week I have had abundant reason to admire and adore the long-suffering of my heavenly Father, for how unprofitable is my life, cold my zeal, imperfect my love! Yet I am spared-and why? O my soul, let this inquiry have a tendency to awaken thy dormant powers, to arouse thee from thy spiritual lethargy, and to make thee diligent in the improvement of those opportunities with which thy gracious Saviour furnishes thee. This week may be thy last. be spent in the service of thy God. Let thy praise be cheerfully ascribed to thy Saviour and preserver. Let thy converse with God in prayer be more frequent, earnest, and simple than formerly. Be upon thy watchtower, and diligently observe thy secret exercises of mind, thy thoughts, words and deeds. Bridle thy temper, curb thy lusts, and be

O let it