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leave me quite alone, poor and miserable as I was. I was helped to recollect several things in Scripture which encouraged me to hold on. Such as 'If we suffer with him, we shall also reign with him,' the examples likewise of Moses, Abraham, and St. Paul, of our blessed Lord himself, and of his saints at the present moment. I repeated the farewell discourse of St. Paul, and endeavoured to think how he would act in my situation. I thought of all God's people looking out after me with expectation: following me with their wishes and prayers. I thought of the holy angels, some of whom perhaps were guarding me on my way; and of God, and of Christ, approving my course and mission. will go for me?-here am I-send me.' I thought of the millions of precious souls that now and in future ages might be benefited."-By such considerations as these, by prayer-by reciting Scripture-by praying over it--by casting himself simply upon Christ--and by looking upon pain and suffering as his daily portion (which thought wonderfully served to tranquillize his mind,) Mr. Martyn was carried through a season of great tribulation, when he might almost have adopted the words of the Psalmist, "Thou hast laid me in the lowest pit, in darkness, in the deeps. Thine indignation lieth hard upon me, and thou hast afflicted me with all thy waves;" Psalm lxxxviii. 6, 7. But it is an inspired declaration, that "they that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint :" nor was it long before he could affix his seal to the truth of this testimony. "In prayer," he says, soon after this, "I soon launched sweetly into eternity, and found joy unspeakable in thinking of my future rest, and of the boundless love and joy I should ever taste in Christ's beloved presence hereafter. I found no difficulty to stir myself up to the contemplation of heaven-my soul through grace, realized it, and I delighted to dwell by faith in those blissful scenes."

Shortly after the fleet had sailed from Ireland, a

tremendous storm arose-and though it was the first that Mr. Martyn had ever witnessed, during a night of general anxiety and consternation, his mind was kept in perfect peace. "He lay, endeavouring to realize his speedy appearance before God in judgment-not indeed without sorrowful convictions of bis sinfulness, and supplications for mercy in the name of Jesus; but with a full confidence in the willingness of God to receive him, and a desire to depart." But he was chiefly led" to think of the many poor souls in the ship, and to pray that they might have a longer time for repentance, and that the terrors of that night might be of lasting benefit." In the morning when the vessel was going under bare poles, the sea covered with so thick a mist, from the spray and rain, that nothing could be seen but the tops of the nearest waves, which seemed to be running over the windward side of the ship, he seized the opportunity of pointing out the way of salvation to one of the passengers, who appeared much terrified; and most willingly, had circumstances permitted, would he have preached to the whole ship's company, warning them to "flee from the wrath to come, and to lay hold on eternal life." The Sunday following he read the thanksgiving prayer after a storm.

Mr. Martyn's voyage before this alarming tempest had been far from expeditious. Seven wearisome weeks had he passed, without having proceeded farther than the latitude of the Lizard. The wind now began to carry him forward; and about the end of the month of September, he reached Madeira.

His Journal, during the interval between the subsiding of the storm and his arrival at Porto Santo, contains these admirable reflections. Sept. 9.—" My chief concern was, that this season of peace might be improved. When the Lord gave David rest from all his enemies round about, then he began to think of building a temple to the Lord. Passed the evening, many sweet hours in reading-Found a rich feast in reading Hooker's Sermons; the doctrines of grace are

a cordial to me. We are now in lat. 46°. long. 12o. The sea, which I am looking on from the port-hole, is comparatively smooth, yet it exhibits the moonbeams only in broken reflections. It is thus an emblem of my heart-no longer tossed with tempestuous passions, it has subsided a little ; but still the mild beams of the Spirit fall on an undulating surface: but the time of perfect rest approaches."

Sept. 10.-" Endeavoured to consider what should be my study and preparation for the mission; but could devise no particular plan, but to search from the Scriptures what are God's promises respecting the spread of the Gospel and of the means by which it shall be accomplished. Long seasons of prayer in behalf of the Heathen, I am sure are necessary.-Isa. lxii. I began Isaiah, and learnt by heart the promises scattered through the twelve first chapters, hoping it may prove profitable matter for meditation as well as prayer. Read Pilgrim's Progress below, amidst the greatest noise and interruption. Notwithstanding the clamour, I felt as if I could preach to a million of noisy persons with unconquerable boldness.-We have been becalmed the whole day. I fear my soul has been much in the same state; but I would not that it should be so any longer."

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Sept. 13. In my walk, my attention was engaged by the appearance of mutiny among the men. Last night the ship's crew and the soldiers refused their allowance; and this morning, when they piped to dianer, they gave three cheers. After some time, a seaman was fixed on as the ringleader; and from his behaviour, I was not sorry to hear the Captain order him to be put into irons. As it was a sorrowful and

humiliating thing to me, I retired to pray for them and myself. In the afternoon I read, as usual, and found two occasions of speaking in reference to their mutinous murmurs."

Sept. 14.-"Found great pleasure and profit in Milner's Church History. I love to converse, as it were, with those holy Bishops and Martyrs, with whom I hope, through grace, to spend a happy eternity."

Sept. 15.-Sunday. things saith, Behold-I come quickly-Amen-even so-come quickly, Lord Jesus!" Happy John! though shut out from society, and the ordinances of grace happy wast thou in thy solitude, when by it thou wast induced thus gladly to welcome the Lord's words, and repeat them with a prayer. Read and preached on Acts xiii. 38, 39. In the latter part, where I was led to speak, without preparation, on the all-sufficiency of Christ to save sinners, who came to him with all their sins without delay, I was carried away with a divine aid to speak with freedom and energy: my soul was refreshed, and I retired, seeing reason to be thankful.-The weather was fair and calm, inviting the mind to tranquillity and praise: the ship just moved upon the face of the untroubled ocean. I went below in hopes of reading Baxter's Call to the Unconverted: but there was no getting down, as they were taking out water; so I sat with the seamen on the gun deck.-As I walked in the evening at sun-set, I thought with pleasure, but a few more suns, and I shall be where my sun shall no more go down. Read Isaiah the rest of the evening, sometimes happy, but at other times tired, and desiring to take up some other religious book; but I saw it an important duty to check this slighting of the word of God."

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Sept. 16. Two things were much in my mind this morning in prayer-the necessity of entering more deeply into my heart, and labouring after humiliation; and, for that reason, setting apart times for fasting as also to devote times for solemn prayer for fitness in the ministry; especially love for souls, and for the effusion of the Spirit on heathen lands, according to God's command. *** coming in, said many had become more hostile than ever; they should come up to prayers, because they believed I was sincere; but not to the sermon, as I did nothing but preach about hell. I hope this portends good. Prevented reading below from the same cause as on Sunday."

Sept. 17.-"It began to blow hard again. The calmness and pleasure with which I contemplate death, rather made me fear I did not fear it enough. Read below with the soldiers."

Sept. 18.-"Rose ill, and continued so all the day. Tried to encourage myself in the Lord. Looking at the sea. my soul was enabled to rejoice in the great Maker of it as my God."

Sept. 19. Was assisted this morning to pray for two hours, principally in regard to God's promises respecting the spread of the Gospel. Read Hindoostanee and Milner: found the men forbidden to go below, so I know not how they are to be instructed. May the Lord open a way.--The weather is calm and sultry. My frame relaxed to a painful degree.I am led to seek a quiet, meek submission to every thing that shall befall me. O, this right blessed frame, would that it may continue! I feel it to be the disposition of a creature approving of every thing, because it is God's doing.”

Sept. 20. My soul was blessed with a sacred and holy reverence in the work of God this morning: it was the sentiment of serious love, such as I should wish always to maintain. To behold God in his glory, and worship him for what he is in himself, I should believe, is the bliss of heaven. Exercised myself in Hindoostanee-Read Pilgrim's Progress to a few below deck-continued to delight in the prospect of preaching in India. The example of the Christian Saints in the early ages has been a source of sweet reflection to me frequently to-day. The holy love and devout meditations of Augustine and Ambrose I delight to think of."

Sept. 21.1 seemed uneasy at the thoughts of calling forth the hatred of the people to-morrow, by preaching to them unpleasant truths."

Sept. 22.-Sunday. "Was more tried by the fear of man than I ever have been since God has called me to the ministry. The threats and opposition of these men made me unwilling to set before them the truths which they hated; yet I had no species of hesi

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