It was a dreary morning when the wheels Rolled over a wide plain o'erhung with clouds, And nothing cheered our way till first we saw The long-roofed chapel of King's College lift Turrets and pinnacles in answering files, Extended high above a dusky grove.
Advancing, we espied upon the road A student clothed in gown and tasselled cap, Striding along as if o'ertasked by Time, Or covetous of exercise and air;
He passed, nor was I master of my eyes Till he was left an arrow's flight behind. As near and nearer to the spot we drew, It seemed to suck us in with an eddy's force. Onward we drove beneath the Castle; caught,
While crossing Magdalene Bridge, a glimpse of
And at the Hoop alighted, famous Inn.
My spirit was up, my thoughts were full of hope; Some friends I had, acquaintances who there Seemed friends, poor simple schoolboys, now hung
With honor and importance: in a world Of welcome faces up and down I roved; Questions, directions, warnings, and advice Flowed in upon me, from all sides; fresh day Of pride and pleasure! to myself I seemed A man of business and expense, and went From shop to shop about my own affairs, To Tutor or to Tailor, as befell,
From street to street with loose and careless mind.
I was the Dreamer, they the Dream; I roamed Delighted through the motley spectacle ; Gowns grave, or gaudy, doctors, students, streets, Courts, cloisters, flocks of churches, gateways,
Migration strange for a stripling of the hills, A Northern villager.
Had waited on some Fairy's wand, at once Behold me rich in moneys, and attired In splendid garb, with hose of silk, and hair Powdered like rimy trees, when frost is keen. My lordly dressing-gown, I pass it by,
With other signs of manhood that supplied
The lack of beard. The weeks went roundly on, With invitations, suppers, wine, and fruit,
Smooth housekeeping within, and all without Liberal, and suiting gentleman's array.
The Evangelist St. John my patron was: Three Gothic courts are his, and in the first Was my abiding-place, a nook obscure ; Right underneath, the College kitchens made A humming sound, less tunable than bees, But hardly less industribus; with shrill notes Of sharp command and scolding intermixed. Near me hung Trinity's loquacious clock, Who never let the quarters, night or day, Slip by him unproclaimed, and told the hours Twice over with a male and female voice. Her pealing organ was my neighbor too; And from my pillow, looking forth by light Of moon or favoring stars, I could behold The antechapel where the statue stood Of Newton, with his prism and silent face, The marble index of a mind for ever
Voyaging through strange seas of Thought, alone.
Of College labors, of the Lecturer's room All studded round, as thick as chairs could stand, With loyal students faithful to their books, Half-and-half idlers, hardy recusants, And honest dunces, of important days, Examinations, when the man was weighed As in a balance! of excessive hopes, Tremblings withal and commendable fears,
Small jealousies, and triumphs good or bad, Let others that know more speak as they know. Such glory was but little sought by me,
And little won. Yet from the first crude days Of settling time in this untried abode,
I was disturbed at times by prudent thoughts, Wishing to hope without a hope, some fears About my future worldly maintenance, And, more than all, a strangeness in the mind, A feeling that I was not for that hour, Nor for that place. But wherefore be cast down? For (not to speak of Reason and her pure Reflective acts to fix the moral law
Deep in the conscience, nor of Christian Hope, Bowing her head before her sister, Faith, As one far mightier) hither I had come, Bear witness Truth, endowed with holy powers And faculties, whether to work or feel. Oft when the dazzling show no longer new Had ceased to dazzle, ofttimes did I quit
My comrades, leave the crowd, buildings and
And as I paced alone the level fields
Far from those lovely sights and sounds sublime With which I had been conversant, the mind Drooped not; but there into herself returning, With prompt rebound, seemed fresh as heretofore. At least I more distinctly recognized
Her native instincts: let me dare to speak A higher language, say that now I felt
What independent solaces were mine,
To mitigate the injurious sway of place Or circumstance, how far soever changed
In youth, or to be changed in manhood's prime : Or for the few who shall be called to look On the long shadows in our evening years, Ordained precursors to the night of death. As if awakened, summoned, roused, constrained, I looked for universal things; perused The common countenance of earth and sky: Earth, nowhere unembellished by some trace Of that first Paradise whence man was driven; And sky, whose beauty and bounty are expressed By the proud name she bears, - the name of Heaven.
I called on both to teach me what they might; Or, turning the mind in upon herself,
Pored, watched, expected, listened, spread my
And spread them with a wider creeping; felt Incumbencies more awful, visitings
Of the Upholder of the tranquil soul, That tolerates the indignities of Time, And, from the centre of Eternity All finite motions overruling, lives In glory immutable. But peace! enough Here to record that I was mounting now To such community with highest truth,- A track pursuing, not untrod before, From strict analogies by thought supplied
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